I loathe homework. I got a book to finish and not trying to over shoot....3 papers to write. But I can bullshit....wonderful quality to have as a college student. So GO ME!

In other news, which sadly isn't much. Being a women sucks. Period. End of Story.

Money is a glorious thing. I walked away from work this weekend 200 ahead. That is great news for me. I reached 1,000 which means only another 1,000 to go before I move out and I have only saved for 3 months and I never put all my money in so if I started doing that then I will be good to go. Yeah!

Lets see. Having a sex life is a wonderful thing. It's been so long. However and I want feedback on this. I just bought this skimpy thing from Vicky C's for like 30 bucks right. It's cute mind you...I'll try to get a picture. Anyroo. Whats the point? The thing is gonna be on for how long? 10 mintues tops? Because as much as guys say they are about foreplay, you dance around in a skimpy lacy thing the foreplay is gone and its right to the sex. Strip it and hit it. Such tact.

Yet they still want you to dance around in the skimpy lacy thing? Which 9 times out of 10 is about as comfortable as it looks, not very. I don't get it. What's the big deal about it? We, women, don't ask guys to go and get sexy things to wear to bed, do we? Unless we have a fetish and if you do....I don't want to know about it, k?  

So there is my life. I'm still avoiding homework and dwelling on things that have no real consequence to my life. Although something did hit me today. My life as it was back in Maryland was so much an illusion of runaway from reality because I was afraid of it. I was afraid of what life was like outside the small town I lived in and the walls that I had built around myself for comfort.

Then I come out here and I am hit with a reality that I had only thought could happen to me. Like looking at I don't see a difference but I was talking to a friend of mine and explaining to her about some things that I went through the past week and she said to me that I was worrying her. I asked why. She reponded, and I could just picture the look on her face, "with all this talk of reality" and that was when I realized it. I'm so beyond what kind of life she is leading and i am out in a world that I thought I would never be a part of.

True it still isnt a full reality but it's like I realized for the first time that I'm not such a kid anymore. I don't know how to deal with that. So that's why I should do my hw and go back into a false reality that school is still all that I am dealing with.